Jitters..

Is there such a thing as motherhood jitters, i wonder?

As Euan's due date draws nearer, i find myself increasingly nervous abt his upcoming grand entrance into this world. Don't get me wrong, i'm absolutely and extremely excited abt finally seeing him, having felt his kicks, and responses to songs and drum beats.

Somehow in the corner at the back of my mind, i wonder if i'll be a good mummy.. would i know how to take care of the little one all by myself.. would i be able to feed him well.. No amount of books and reading seem sufficient..

Well, my consolation is, we all learn along the way.. and by God's grace and solely with His help, Euan will be a happy and joyful baby. =)

Getting too mummified?

I think tt i'm getting too maternal these days when
- i started naming the little bat which hangs upside down outside my front patio Betty. But YY preferred Baley (after Christian Bale from Batman). Come to think of it, it might be male. =P
- i thought tt the little rat that dashed out from an empty flower pot was cute.
- i start explaining to the little squirrel in my backyard which got startled by me tt i was merely hanging my clothes, and not harming him in anyway.
- i started looking out for Baley everytime i leave my house, and assume he's gone for a honeymoon when he was missing for a week.
- i realised tt Baley has grown taller and fatter since the past 2 months of seeking refuge in my patio roof.
- a mother cat sat by my feet whilst i was having lunch at a foodcourt and i just let her be.

No, i'm not keeping a zoo in my house / backyard. But i think it's all the anticipation of Euan's birth that i find my maternal instincts kicking in far more than it used to. =)

A chubby little Euan at 28weeks =)

Photo Scan: Little Euan at 28 weeks.. His face is on the left and facing upwards. His little fingers (the small floret above) probably about to go into his mouth. And his tummy on the right of the scan. He sure is getting chubbier! =)

It's amazing and delightful every time we go for the monthly antenatal scans to "see" Euan. But more so now as he puts on weight and not look so 'alien-ish' anymore. Doc says Euan's putting on a little more weight than he should, but I'm still doing fine. Gotta cut my carbs, but i keep getting hungry.. So will have to work out a good balance of nutrients going in. =)

We thank God that He has truly seen us through the past 2 trimesters and now we're at this final trimester. Excitement is mounting as we so look forward to the day to welcome little Euan into this world and into our home and family. There are anxieties and fears too regarding labor and delivery, but I'm confident that God has carried me thus far.. He'll carry me through it all. =)

Thank you for always praying for us. =)

Little Note from Little Euan.. =)

Hi, aunties & uncles..

I overheard some of you asking Mummy what I will be needing when I make my grand appearance in June.

Well, before you buy me anything, let me tell u a secret..

Because Mummy & Daddy have waited a very very long time for me to come along, they got pretty excited, (and so did my Grandmas and Grandpa, my Ah ku & Ah kim and also my Er ku and San ku). So guess what, they’ve bought me all the big stuffs already! Even my bedroom and playroom according to Mummy, are super cool! In fact, I think Mummy likes hanging out in my playroom more than her own bedroom. You have to come visit sometime. At least before I learn how to mess it up.. =)

Anyways, if you’re still thinking of getting me something to welcome me, well, toys would be super duper great. Mummy and Daddy haven’t bought me a single toy. Most of my stuff toys are their own. =P I think they keep forgetting that I’m a boy, and I don’t really do stuff bears. So, it’d be nice to get some cool toys like those from Fisher Price or Lamaze. Heard these stuff can help make my brain even smarter. But best to check with Mummy first. I think she knows best. ;)

As for clothes, well, like I said, Mummy’s gone all out to buy me some nice baby clothes. Plus Aunty Min from Singapore got me some, and Aunty Eileen & Aunty Shirene gave me some of Koko Andrew & Koko River’s clothes. But if you really really wanna dress me up, remember, I wanna look cool (even cooler than daddy). So clothes from 9months onwards would be great. =) Remember, I wanna look cool. So that when Mummy or Aunty Phylli takes my photos, I’ll be the handsomest boy on the block. =)

But more than anything else, I’m just looking forward to seeing all of you. Mummy says many uncles and aunties, granduncles and grandaunties have been praying for me even before Father God made me. So, thank you – your prayers are more precious than anything else in the world. =)